Thoughts.

I’m trying so hard to like… Just be ok. To just be at peace with everything that happened. But I can’t. I’m so in love with someone that I’ll never be able to hug, or hold, or kiss again. I’ll never be able to tell him how deeply I was in love with him again. And that shit just hurts. Like I have this deep gross ache in heart whenever I think about it. I can’t get certain images out of my head. Everything reminds me of him. Songs, movies, tv. I’ll hear something and I can’t wait to tell him about it. I’d give anything to have 5 more minutes. I see him in my dreams. He’s in my thoughts always. And I miss him more than I’ve ever missed anything. I don’t even wanna love no more honestly. I’m fuckin heart broken like there are no words. I loved him so much. My babe. We had our own world. Our own plan. I’m sad af honestly. Sorry for being depressing. But these are my thoughts.

  • 1: What is your name and does it mean anything?
  • 2: How long have you known your best friend?
  • 3: What position do you normally sleep in?
  • 4: Were you a part of any “clique” in high school?
  • 5: Who was your favorite teacher in high school and why?
  • 6: Do you wish to travel a lot?
  • 7: Did you participate in any sports while in school?
  • 8: Show a sample of your handwriting:
  • 9: Have you ever given blood?
  • 10: Do you like the way that you grew up?
  • 11: Do you like your siblings? Why or why not?
  • 12: How did you meet your best friend and why did you become friends?
  • 13: Name one movie that made you cry.
  • 14: Do you prefer to read poetry, write poetry, or neither?
  • 15: Things about someone that you find attractive?
  • 16: What song are you currently listening to?
  • 17: Have you ever broken a bone? If so, how?
  • 18: A random memory from you childhood:
  • 19: Where did you grow up?
  • 20: What was the last thing you watched on tv?
  • 21: Do you think you’d make a good parent?
  • 22: Would you like to meet any of your Tumblr friends in person?
  • 22: What was the last dream you remember having?
  • 23: When is your birthday?
  • 24: How many pillows do you sleep with?
  • 25: Do you wear glasses? If so, how long have you been wearing glasses?
  • 26: What color is your hair?
  • 27: Name 5 facts about your appearance:
  • 28: What is your favorite soda?
  • 29: What is a strange talent that you have?
  • 30: How’s the weather right now?
  • 31: Why did one of your friendships end?
  • 32: Who do you miss right now?
  • 33: Why did your last relationship end?
  • 34: Are you still figuring out who you are?
  • 35: Have you ever been admitted to a hospital? Why?
  • 36: What is your favorite restaurant?
  • 37: What is word that you always seem to spell wrong?
  • 38: Would ever adopt kids?
  • 39: What is your favorite kind of pizza?
  • 40: What was your first thought when you woke up this morning?
  • 41: When was the last time you got really really happy and why?
  • 42: What’s the strangest thing you’ve ever eaten?
  • 43: How do you start a conversation?
  • 44: What’s a band you’ve been obsessed with lately?
  • 45: Do you come from a family “of money?”
  • 46: Do you have a bucket list?
  • 47: What is your favorite series of books?
  • 48: When was the last time you laughed so hard your stomach hurt?
  • 49: Where do you go when you’re sad?
  • 50: 5 random facts about yourself:

Send me asks and stuff.

Help me get my mind off things. Pweeze. I’m pretty nice.

phuckindope:

If I date you,

I see myself marrying you.

I see myself building with you.

I see myself growing with you.

I don’t date just to pass time.

I’m dating you because I see potential in you.

(Source: diaryofakanemem, via pinchechinita)

I miss tf out of him.

  • mum: can you-
  • me: *groans for 17 hours*

It’s crazy how your body just doesn’t get hungry when you’re depressed.

Yesterday.

Yesterday at 2pm I lost the love of my life. I’ve never had heartache like this before. And I have no idea how I’m still going on. This boy was my absolute best friend. My love. My boyfriend. We had plans. We had plans together. We wanted to build our lives together. Move in together, get new cars, get married, have kids. He was a good one. We barely ever fought about anything. And if we did disagree we always worked it out. We were a unit. We worked together. We made each other better. I’ve never ever been in love like this before. I’m so fucking heart broken. On everything I love my heart is fuckin broken. I can’t walk past his room without crying. All I have are pictures, videos, and memories. Of my favorite person. We always told each other that we were each other’s favorite. And that was true. His 23rd birthday would’ve been next month. God I don’t even know what to do. Like…. What?